good news!

I have been offered a position into the Clinical Nurse Leader master's program at UVA... not a moment to late or too soon.

Over the past several months, I had been struggling with what to do with my life - to pursue residency in Honduras and work in a Honduran youth ministry or return to the US and do who knows what. In the process, the Lord has taught me what it means to wait upon Him. Elisabeth Elliot describes it well: "that waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts." She also warns that "it is easy to talk oneself into a decision that has no permanence - easier sometimes than to wait patiently." I found myself often in that position, talking myself into all the reasons I should stay - and then making that "decision"... and then later talking myself into the reasons why I shouldn't stay - and making that "decision".
I went before the Lord - as He convicted me that I need to SEEK Him first (above my desires to be with my family, my fears of being on my own, my heart for the people here...) and since then I have just been waiting... and learning what it means to wait silently, just offering it up to the Lord every time I thought about what I was to do. In the past few weeks, He has laid it on my heart and shown me through circumstances that for now, my time in Honduras is drawing to a close.
I have such a peace about this decision - although I do get hit with waves of sadness to be leaving people that I have come to care deeply about. I look at my time here and see so much that the Lord has taught me. He has shown me Himself in so many ways, He has given me new direction in my life - as I would have never considered nursing before I came to Honduras - and He has given me an incredible love for Honduras and the people here. I know that as I will look to go home in a couple months, my time here is not over. I don't know what is in store for the future - but I do know that resting in God's plan is the very best place to be.
and just as God is ever faithful to us, He calls me to be faithful to what He has given me here and now... May I be worthy of that calling.